Today I opened up a new deck of cards, called Self Mastery Cards! I asked a question about destiny and creating a great fortune. I asked what the next step towards this ultimate goal might be.
When I say “fortune” I am not referring only to wealth or prosperity, but also to spiritual fortune and well being, to the fortune of living in a peaceful, loving, and beauty-filled way. The question referred also to the fortune of creating nourishing relationships and connections and the fortune of being attuned to Self as a soul, a magnificent spiritual being, connected to the Ultimate Source of Life, Love, Peace, and Happiness~~~
Not a small question~ Yet the answer was surprisingly simple~ I pulled: Understanding which conveyed the message :
” To look deeper than the surface. As a master, I seek the meaning that is hidden below.
I look behind the words and between the lines to find the true meaning of my world.”
As a master, as soon as the thought forms, the action must follow. I found myself reflecting on the past week because so many things were “showing up” in an unfamiliar way and seemingly inaccurate way on the surface~ Interestingly it involved men, machines, and the intimate relationships that I have with those machines and their service providers, i.e. the car mechanic and the tech guy!!! Much to understand here in retrospect.
First off, my car overheated unexpectedly, yet conveniently close to a friends’ home. So I pulled over before the needle rose to the top of the gauge and they kindly brought me home. Warm, benevolent universe assuaging some minor angst~Next day, I hitch hiked easily back to their home, and got my car over to my “trusty”? mechanic. Busy, busy, busy in his one man shop, often grumpy and unwilling to schedule time and yet, a good mechanic, despite his style of overworking to the point of not being truly serviceable~ Well, he seemed quite “blaming” as he gave me his prognosis, later that afternoon. He retorted: “well, you really drove the car hard, you blew the head gasket, it is only running on 3 cyclinders”! WHEW~ and on top of that, he said “I don’t work on head gaskets, you won’t get your money out of the car” Without a doubt he was pointing out that this car was not worth working on and also not worth wasting any more time or money on ~! SHOCK! This was not just some car , this was my trusty white steed that galloped me happily from place to place. Unnerved, I left his company dismayed, but with so much ahead of me, I put the car on the back burner in order to focus on the big event we were producing at the end of the week~I rented a car, in order to get around and escort our guest speaker, a delightful chap, a yogi of 18 years, and decidedly, a detached observer! No time yet, to look deeper than the surface to see what was hidden below in my consciousness which was mirroring such dire circumstances.
As it turned out, after calling a friend to see if I should purchase her vehicle, she told me about an extremely reliable, honest, accurate, and trust-worthy mechanic named: Ernest!!! Meeting Ernest and his shop of helpers was like going to church, a church of kindness and upliftment. He looked at the “white steed” and assured me that it was not a blown head gasket and he could have us back on the road in a day’s time. Nice turn around from the prognosis of Freddy, the former mechanic from purgatory! More to come about the outcome of the computer diagnosis, but now first things first. Our big “Being with One” ws upon us and all attention was riveted there.
On the day of the event, I finally had a chance to share the guided meditation which came to me as a download from Source,several months before. As I read it to our guest speaker, I could feel something was amiss.
As gently as possible he said,” Cut it in half! ” This could have been a good project on any other day, but on the day of the event~ WHEW~And then more mechanical problems, the printer would only print out part of it…and the computer stopped working!
Unopened messages from the universe were backing up on me…Much to get to the heart of and yet “the show must go on” was all I could think of. There was no time to gracefully make the guest lunch, nor to feed myself as I “slaved” away at cutting back this beautiful meditation I had cherished. The room in which I was editing felt like a sauna, but I was oblivious to heat, to hunger, to taking care of all the details that still needed attention to make our event a complete success! The show must go on! This was the surface feeling…underneath was a lot of angst~letting go, dieing alive, fear, feeling not worthy, not good enough, not appreciated…all of this was suppressed. The show must go on! I must put on a good show, no matter what!
This took place in September, 2014. I have since come to meditate on the fact that only body consciousness brings in the energy of fear! If one is in the awareness of being a pure and peaceful soul, fear can not come to roost!
As the loving and lovely drama will have it, I have been practicing this big time today! How successfully? On a scale of 1 to 10, I, the soul says that I have achieved a score of 8. Well done!
I did feel how much more comfortable it could be to flee the entire situation and the cast of characters that are dominating the physical environment I’m temporairly in. Yet, the other side of me, has the strength to envision the benefit that could come out of all of it for Self and Others!!!
It is a test paper, a short-lived crucible of relationship that, in the past, I might have overly analyzed, wondering how to express the love that is inherent in every beat of our hearts.
Today I approach acceptance of all the roles that each character is playing out perfectly, including the ones I am acting out. Progress, for sure in the delicate art of detachment and deep love.
I’m also recognizing the enormous impact of a single stray thought and how it affects others, even if not expressed. It appears that only the amplification brought on by the crucible of close relationship could bring my attention to such fine detail for the purpose of clearing the traces and smudges of unkempt thoughts, right now, and in every subsequent moment!
Looking below the surface and understanding continues to be an important next step in Self Mastery. Mastering myself does not include fixing others, fleeing the situation, or getting lost in the storm!
Mastery involves the Self and the Supreme Soul. Being completely honest with Self and the Purifier, completely loving to this Benevolent One, and completely detached to the rest of it, i.e. the results that are being played out in this most amazing drama.
Mastery is about remembering who I am, who I belong to, and where I am going.
Sitting in self respect, not needing to prove I’m right or wrong, just knowing that the internal stance is to create the most harmony. In the midst of it, it often looks like just the opposite might be going on.
Hold fast to giving no sorrow and taking no sorrow. Stay in the comfort and contentment of the One who is cleaning you, the One who has complete altruistic love for all, and the One who urges me on at every step.